1 Whole Wheat Bagel without Cream Cheese Please

They put the cream cheese on my plate anyways.
I'm at Zera about to crack open my chemistry book and cram 3 chapters in before tomorrow's big test at 11 am. Please pray.

I had a mini crisis this weekend and flew home for 24 hours. I'm so homesick. I miss my family so much. There is nothing like being away from them. In the midst of my depression I made some big no no's that I am not proud of. Especially so close to being finished with my challenge. But I will not quit. As my mom always says, "Get right back on it."

The big no no's consisted of Jorge's, 3 free days, 2 missed work outs, and 2 pounds gained back. Ughhh. I know. It's bad. But I needed that family time. I flew, and it was literally a 26 hour trip, there was no time to work out. It was so nice to see the family and get to play with my niece. She is the most precious baby girl of all time. Seriously.

So Week 11 started yesterday. I can't believe it! I am trying to not get down about my recent set backs and press on! Hope everyone has a great week.

Allison Todd

Stressed Spelled Backwards is Desserts

I am stressed to the max. To the extreme. Trying to get into a nursing program is one of the most stressful things I have ever done. Normally when stressed I eat a lot. Now, I want to work out the stress. That is an amazing feeling. BFL not only changed my eating habits and work out routine, it changed the way I think about things. I truly hate missing a work out. I know that it is good for my body and that we weren't made to be lazy! We were made to work hard and be healthy! I am thankful for my healthy body and the knowledge of how to take care of it. :D

If you are tired of me taking pictures of myself, I'm not a narcissist I promise! I normally don't take this many pics of myself. I just wanted to be able to clearly see my progress. Plus, blogs are always more fun when there are pictures involved. 

Ok so last summer I bought some capris that were WAY to small. It hurt to wear them. I bought them with the hopes that they would eventually stretch. They didn't. I lost a little bit of weight and they eventually fit but look at them now!

Also, I am trying to raise some money to go Bowl for a ministry that I support. If you would like to read more about it or if you are interested in helping click this link Bowlfest 2011

Thanks for reading!
Alli

Breakdown

I had the most pathetic breakdown tonight. Let me start by saying that I am a sappy, emotional mess these days. I miss my family back in Midland/Odessa so much. I really let it get me down when I shouldn't. Need to learn to move on, but that's for another blog another day.

Dylan went out with his friends tonight and I wanted to stay home and have a "me" night. I did my cardio and sat down, wrote my blog and then started watching some TV. I called Pita Pit, then called and cancelled my order and decided to eat the leftover pizza in the fridge. Mistake. Big Mistake. There was just one piece but I shouldn't have done it. This is what I do when I'm depressed, I eat my feelings. It really is a big problem. This summer when we first moved here and I was sad, I ate a whole cake by myself. Dylan and Sarah probably had one piece each but I ate the rest by myself. This is why I weighed 180 pounds this summer.

I then made myself a PB&J. With reduced fat PB and lowfat sugar free Jelly. I should have stopped there but I didn't. I wanted some McDonald's french fries. I battled myself with this for a few hours. Finally around 9:30 I went to Micky D's and ordered a medium fry and a small chocolate shake. As I type this I get a little sick with myself. Well when I went to pay, my card didn't work.

This is the pathetic part: I cried. I drove away and I cried. I just wanted some friggen fries. I called Dylan crying and I'm sure he thought I was a crazy person. Who cries because they couldn't get fries?

About 30 minutes later, 3 of my sweet sweet friends showed up at my door with fries. I would've cried if I hand't already been crying.

It was a sweet gesture that I will be punishing myself for tomorrow. Week 10 starts Monday and I am going to go harder than I ever have! Maybe even add 10 minutes more to my cardio.

Thanks for reading and encouraging me. It really does keep me going. Love, Alli

Never Again

I'm still alive! I promise I haven't quit. I have been so busy these past few weeks and it just seems like I never have a second to slow down to even do laundry, much less write in the blog. But I've been feeling guilty so, here I am! I have a scary picture for you all... Here it is.

My shorts from last summer. When we went to Cambodia, I had to get new shorts because none of my other ones fit. Size 12. They look much larger.

I will never again let myself get that out of shape and that overweight again! Yuck.
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Week 10 starts Monday. I am scared! What will happen when it's over? I don't want to quit working out. I want to keep losing, toning and being happy with my body.

I've only missed 2 workouts, both cardio. Can't miss anymore, we are in the home stretch!

These are my confessions

So... my eating hasn't been as strict as it should be. I had two free days in a row. I felt horrible and guilty. But after some advice, I put on my big girl panties and I dealt with it. Here is a tip if you plan on doing BFL: Plan your meals and have time for groceries. It is so much harder to do this when you don't have groceries at home. I have compromised meals because of this. Dylan and I are having a grocery store date later this evening and I can't wait! It's been too long since I've made a good healthy meal.

I was feeling pretty defeated by my Jorge's.cupcake splurge and then I took another pic. I don't know if you saw it below but check it out. You might be as shocked as I was.

wow wow wow wow wow. it's working!!!!! Can't give up. Sarah has decided to do an extra week since Spring Break was a set back. I think I might do an extra week too. We will see. Thanks for reading! 

I should be studying

But I am waiting for Sarah to pick me up so we can go do our LB work out. Please pray for us! We both have big tests tomorrow. :D

So here are some pics while I wait. We are in Week 8 people!

"Looks like you guys got some sun today" Don't worry it's healing. 

 Oh hi abs! Nice to see you again. It's been a while. 

Nice to meet you bicep! I don't think we've ever met! 

By the way, I was definitely not holding my tummy in this one. Embarrassing. It looks better than that I promise.

Spring Break

My last post was such a downer. I apologize for my bad attitude! I also want to apologize for not posting at all over the break. I meant to, but I have been so busy! It feels like I'm just getting a little break.

My break has been really great though. I haven't missed a work out. I even woke up twice at 5:30 am to go to Gold's Gym with my brother! It is actually kind of nice to get it all out of the way early in the morning and leaves you free for the rest of the day. I don't think I could do it regularly though, so props to you Cameron!

The only thing I'm worried about is my eating. I have been eating right, just too much. I went to Midland for a few days and loaded up on some Jorge's the first day we got there. It was so delicious and I appreciated it more after waiting so long to have it. I even ate well when we went to Aubelo's and it wasn't my free day. I haven't really cheated at all. The other night I had some chips when I shouldn't have but, oh well.

I even went on a hike on my free day! Impressive I know :D

I will update a longer post on Monday I promise! Enjoy the last few days of the break!