1 Whole Wheat Bagel without Cream Cheese Please

They put the cream cheese on my plate anyways.
I'm at Zera about to crack open my chemistry book and cram 3 chapters in before tomorrow's big test at 11 am. Please pray.

I had a mini crisis this weekend and flew home for 24 hours. I'm so homesick. I miss my family so much. There is nothing like being away from them. In the midst of my depression I made some big no no's that I am not proud of. Especially so close to being finished with my challenge. But I will not quit. As my mom always says, "Get right back on it."

The big no no's consisted of Jorge's, 3 free days, 2 missed work outs, and 2 pounds gained back. Ughhh. I know. It's bad. But I needed that family time. I flew, and it was literally a 26 hour trip, there was no time to work out. It was so nice to see the family and get to play with my niece. She is the most precious baby girl of all time. Seriously.

So Week 11 started yesterday. I can't believe it! I am trying to not get down about my recent set backs and press on! Hope everyone has a great week.

Allison Todd

Stressed Spelled Backwards is Desserts

I am stressed to the max. To the extreme. Trying to get into a nursing program is one of the most stressful things I have ever done. Normally when stressed I eat a lot. Now, I want to work out the stress. That is an amazing feeling. BFL not only changed my eating habits and work out routine, it changed the way I think about things. I truly hate missing a work out. I know that it is good for my body and that we weren't made to be lazy! We were made to work hard and be healthy! I am thankful for my healthy body and the knowledge of how to take care of it. :D

If you are tired of me taking pictures of myself, I'm not a narcissist I promise! I normally don't take this many pics of myself. I just wanted to be able to clearly see my progress. Plus, blogs are always more fun when there are pictures involved. 

Ok so last summer I bought some capris that were WAY to small. It hurt to wear them. I bought them with the hopes that they would eventually stretch. They didn't. I lost a little bit of weight and they eventually fit but look at them now!

Also, I am trying to raise some money to go Bowl for a ministry that I support. If you would like to read more about it or if you are interested in helping click this link Bowlfest 2011

Thanks for reading!
Alli

Breakdown

I had the most pathetic breakdown tonight. Let me start by saying that I am a sappy, emotional mess these days. I miss my family back in Midland/Odessa so much. I really let it get me down when I shouldn't. Need to learn to move on, but that's for another blog another day.

Dylan went out with his friends tonight and I wanted to stay home and have a "me" night. I did my cardio and sat down, wrote my blog and then started watching some TV. I called Pita Pit, then called and cancelled my order and decided to eat the leftover pizza in the fridge. Mistake. Big Mistake. There was just one piece but I shouldn't have done it. This is what I do when I'm depressed, I eat my feelings. It really is a big problem. This summer when we first moved here and I was sad, I ate a whole cake by myself. Dylan and Sarah probably had one piece each but I ate the rest by myself. This is why I weighed 180 pounds this summer.

I then made myself a PB&J. With reduced fat PB and lowfat sugar free Jelly. I should have stopped there but I didn't. I wanted some McDonald's french fries. I battled myself with this for a few hours. Finally around 9:30 I went to Micky D's and ordered a medium fry and a small chocolate shake. As I type this I get a little sick with myself. Well when I went to pay, my card didn't work.

This is the pathetic part: I cried. I drove away and I cried. I just wanted some friggen fries. I called Dylan crying and I'm sure he thought I was a crazy person. Who cries because they couldn't get fries?

About 30 minutes later, 3 of my sweet sweet friends showed up at my door with fries. I would've cried if I hand't already been crying.

It was a sweet gesture that I will be punishing myself for tomorrow. Week 10 starts Monday and I am going to go harder than I ever have! Maybe even add 10 minutes more to my cardio.

Thanks for reading and encouraging me. It really does keep me going. Love, Alli

Never Again

I'm still alive! I promise I haven't quit. I have been so busy these past few weeks and it just seems like I never have a second to slow down to even do laundry, much less write in the blog. But I've been feeling guilty so, here I am! I have a scary picture for you all... Here it is.

My shorts from last summer. When we went to Cambodia, I had to get new shorts because none of my other ones fit. Size 12. They look much larger.

I will never again let myself get that out of shape and that overweight again! Yuck.
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Week 10 starts Monday. I am scared! What will happen when it's over? I don't want to quit working out. I want to keep losing, toning and being happy with my body.

I've only missed 2 workouts, both cardio. Can't miss anymore, we are in the home stretch!